Autumnal Equinox diary

Sep 22, 2017
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Today is the Autumnal Equinox and my favorite holiday of the year. This is the journey out of the fire of summer and into the harvest and coziness of the fall. This season welcomes us back to the root of all things maybe even to touch the earth itself. It's a time to gather what is important to us, a time to start the process of creating a nest from which we can snuggle into a more introspective way of being, a time to harvest all the things that bloomed in the sun, and a time to compost all the things that wilted.

I spent the day today deep cleaning my apartment and creating an autumn equinox altar a.k.a. spooky halloween explosion! I've been listening to Diamanda Galas, Buffy Sainte-Marie, Stevie Nicks, and Santana. Incense, candles and blacklight fills the room.

My contemplation/question: As a teacher, who am I becoming, what does the next phase of my life look like, and what new perspective is needed for this change?

I pulled a card from The Wild Unknown Animal deck. "Cobra! Pausing, Waiting, The Inner-Teacher. The cobra represents a teacher. The cobra hovers and watches, ever-present, every-protecting, ever-loving. The essence of the cobra is found deep within us in the form of the inner-teacher. What would it feel like to be a student again? What are you ready to learn? Remember the old saying, 'When the student is ready, the teacher appears."

This is profoundly meaningful for me. As the autumn has approached slowly the amount of classes I'm teaching has dwindled, and I've not wanted to fill in my schedule with more classes. Instead I've been saying that I need a shift and a new format from which I enter the world as a teacher.

I've been saying to my close friends that I just want to be a student again. I've been considering what it would be like to go back to school or how to take a sabbatical to study. I've been drawn to find a teacher who can help guide me to what is next.

And so it is this auspicious time to ask questions, set intentions, and patiently listen for clarity.

Happy Autumnal Equinox! May this season delight you and challenge you in all the best ways. Shanti, shanti, shanti.